My perspective of home barely changed to this stage of my life. As i stated before; to me, "Home is where the heart is" there are millions of houses. But which one do i feel like home? At the same time, my patriotic attitude guides to know America as my home in a wider scale. This land and all the features inside it makes me feel comfortable.
As an example, Imagine someone goes through a life of constant fight and chaos in everyday life. Years of battleship and stress. Experiencing, living and breathing tension every single day. After living this form of life for many years. When all of the sudden life turn out peaceful. No need to be worry about the outcome of the next wave of tension. Silence is everywhere and life is so calm. Everything sound ideal and relaxing. The person get confusion. Psychologically the person can not accept these terms because constantly something is not right from the within because of the bad old habit. In many cases people will go so riot and angry and ask this question "why everything is so calm? What kind of life is this?" sometimes they even try to create a new tension on their own to make their life sound normal. Because at this moment the peace does not feel right and it makes them feel insecure. However this is the life they were wishing for years ago back in time. But today, they barely can recognize it because the emotions are infected to tension. It takes some time so the person recover their old memories and remember who they really are and this peaceful life is what they always wished for. It takes time and effort to make this recent lifestyle a habit and a life to get used to. To be able to separate the old and new memories from each other. And continue embracing the new adventures.
I believe this process is what you going through. You must give yourself time and live through while embracing your new adventures. See what happens then.
